*Title stolen appropriated from Oasis
I was pretty sure this month was THE month.
It wasn’t.
I wish I had the ability to not care or take it in my stride. But mostly to not care.
I don’t.
I know that the best thing I could do for myself would be to relax about it.
I’ve never relaxed about anything in my entire life. It seems like I would have to change my personality to start now. Note to self: change personality.
Tonight, I posted this on twitter:
Impressively I managed to wait 16 hours until I got back home before crying my fucking heart out*
It’s always the same. Only the name of the month changes.
*I rarely swear on twitter, or in any other written medium, because generally it’s my belief that swearing is lazy, and that a decent vocabulary is a far better idea. But there are a few situations, where nothing can be so perfectly expressed as through a swear word.
I’m looking forward to tomorrow.
Because the toddler is like the kryptonite of pity parties. And I could use some kryptonite.
I’m so sorry, Zoey! I know it will happen for you soon! Praying for you!.-= Carrie´s last blog ..On Wanting and Waiting and Finally Having =-.
xx
Ok, so xx looks a bit lame sitting on it’s own. What I really mean is that I hope your months change real soon for you xx.-= Dovic´s last blog ..Oh to be 23 again =-.
Take heart Zoey. It will happen. Wish I was there with you love you
“Note to self: change personality.” Oh boy do I feel you on this one. So sorry you had another month’s disappointment. Big internet ((HUGS)) my friend.
So sorry to hear of your disappointment, Zoey. It took me a long time to fall pregnant with my daughter so I know the pain of the month after month heartache. Hang in there. xo.-= Megan at Writing Out Loud´s last blog ..99 Things =-.
Hi Zoey, after reading this I’m sorry if I was inadvertently insensitive with anything I said yesterday.
Your blog is lovely, and the children gorgeous. It was great to meet you, and I am very interested to know if you’ve heard anything about the Smart Home Family thingy. We entered too! It’s been a while since submissions closed so I suspect we haven’t been shortlisted.
.-= Marilyn at live first, write later´s last blog ..Freelancing for Australians for Dummies =-.
Hi Marilyn!
Nothing to worry about with yesterday – if anything it was nice to be distracted for a couple of hours ;o)
I’ve heard nothing about the Smart Home Family thing. Although I did read in an article that shortlist was April/May. And as a professional tender writer I can tell you that government tenders tend to be overly ambitious in their timeline. I wouldn’t be surprised if they were running late.
PS. I’m with you on swearing. I decided it was a habit I could stop, so I did, now they hardly ever pop into my head (unless, like you, the situation REALLY BADLY calls for one!)..-= Marilyn at live first, write later´s last blog ..Freelancing for Australians for Dummies =-.
((Hug)).-= Annie @ PhD in Parenting´s last blog ..Margaret Wente asks “why are bloggers male?” =-.
So sorry,that it hasn’t happened yet. Remember I am always here or just a phone call away if you need to talk.
I’m so sorry Zoey. When we meet you will be pregnant, so it will have to be soon.-= Treacy´s last blog ..beautiful blogger award =-.
Big bloggy hugs, Zoey.xoxoxo
and hey, Fe has posted the piccies on her site. Check it out. Her site’s fe.org.au
.-= Brenda´s last blog ..FlogYoBlog Friday #4 =-.
Am looking forward to reading your tweet telling us all you are pregnant
It will happen soon but in the meantime you are so right to be enjoying Riley. She is gorgeous.
hey zoey…
sending you love and light
and wishing and hoping everything aligns for you and your family
x
Thanks Bronny ;o)
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