Things that I miss from my former life are pretty simple.
Being sick without having anyone other than myself to look after.
Losing a whole day in the sun reading a book.
Movie marathons. Either sitting at home and watching about 12 hours of movies back to back or going to the movies and seeing a few movies back to back. Once upon a time I used to write film reviews until I realised how much I hated being a critic and I loved being a fan.
In hindsight, I underappreciated my pre-kids life in a somewhat epic way. I think though everybody probably does.
But there are still things from my old life that make their way into this one.
I’m not wallowing whenever I feel sick anymore. But I do look after the kidlets when they are sick. Last week Riley was sick. Not sick, sick. But definitely warm and under the weather. And I feel guilty writing this but I enjoyed it. She was so snuggly and I enjoyed it.
Yesterday I went on a trip with just Riley and I. It was the first time I’ve done that since Piper was born. When we got there she made up a song called ‘just mummy and me’ I think my heart exploded.
And then we went to the movies and I got to see her light up when the movie started. Actually, she lit up before then. I think she would have been quite happy to sit there and watch previews for two hours. But when the movie did start I got to watch every shriek of delight coming from the little person next to me, every riotous laugh at something unexpected, every look of wonder in her eyes. I probably spent more time watching her than I did watching the movie.
When we left the theatre she was pointing at every poster saying she wanted to see that movie as well. Be still my beating heart.